This year I’ve been struggling with stress, anxiety, and depression more than I ever have. It’s taken a lot of soul searching and deep digging to figure out the root causes of it.
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One of the fascinating things I’ve found, was that I was glorifying the darkness inside of me, and I became addicted to living in it.
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Living in the darkness gave me pain, and that pain was real, heavy, and very intense.
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After experiencing less “ups” than normal, I found that I was “getting high” or “glorifying” the feeling of pain and darkness because that feeling was more intense for me than the feeling of joy, peace, happiness, or fulfillment over a period of time.
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It didn’t take long before that darkness became an addiction, and I started “glorifying” in my head, living and being the person who was consistently fighting the darkness.
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When I realized this, I realized I only had 2 real choices…
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I can be an “addict” to the darkness and slowly deteriorate my life away…
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OR…
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I could hold my ground, fight back, push through the hell I put myself into, and release the addiction and enjoy living the “light” side of life again.
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Standing your ground and fighting back into the light isn’t easy, and I see how most people would end up giving up.
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But I won’t… I refuse too. I’m too damn stubborn to give in to any of the enemies that are placed in front of me to stop me from where I ultimately want to go.
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If you’re reading this and it resonates with you… know you’re not alone.
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It’s not going to be easy getting out of it, but YOU’VE got this.
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Don’t give up… on YOU.
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Day 301 #povchallenge
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One of the fascinating things I’ve found, was that I was glorifying the darkness inside of me, and I became addicted to living in it.
.
Living in the darkness gave me pain, and that pain was real, heavy, and very intense.
.
After experiencing less “ups” than normal, I found that I was “getting high” or “glorifying” the feeling of pain and darkness because that feeling was more intense for me than the feeling of joy, peace, happiness, or fulfillment over a period of time.
.
It didn’t take long before that darkness became an addiction, and I started “glorifying” in my head, living and being the person who was consistently fighting the darkness.
.
When I realized this, I realized I only had 2 real choices…
.
I can be an “addict” to the darkness and slowly deteriorate my life away…
.
OR…
.
I could hold my ground, fight back, push through the hell I put myself into, and release the addiction and enjoy living the “light” side of life again.
.
Standing your ground and fighting back into the light isn’t easy, and I see how most people would end up giving up.
.
But I won’t… I refuse too. I’m too damn stubborn to give in to any of the enemies that are placed in front of me to stop me from where I ultimately want to go.
.
If you’re reading this and it resonates with you… know you’re not alone.
.
It’s not going to be easy getting out of it, but YOU’VE got this.
.
Don’t give up… on YOU.
.
Day 301 #povchallenge